CARELESS & NOT SO PROUD

THIS HAS TO STOP BELLA THIS HAS TO STOP
this is a letter to me fa shhhhhhhh im addressing myself malkoum da5al feeni

mama tgool ur careless you just ignore shoosh tgooolik careless you just ignore. YOU TELL YOURSELF they r jelous o0o ma 3ndhoum salfa. JELOUS 3LA AISH 3la your carelessness NO I DONT THINK SO. THIS MUST STOP i cant it5rj next year o0o ana b nafs 7alat my carelessness. SHOOSH if ur reading this post plz 9fgeeni so i can stop being careless. TODAY i felt like crap i felt so careless so stupid so hbla so 7mara.

I walk out of the car o0o hear something hit the floor. I look in the car near the door where its hard o0o makes noise itha shay 6a7 3layh bas i didnt see nething so 8rart that nothing fell. o0o 6al 3mraha bella NVR looks twice. So i walk in the mall and run to catch up with shoosh. Istw3bt then that i forgot mobily o0o say shit. SHOOSH looks at me o0o says aish i say i thnk i forgot mobily bil sayara and walk off like i didnt care.
THE PROBLEM is i knew WALAH i knew inno 6a7 3al ar*9 bas i decided to block that part out o0o be in denial o0o say its in the car. OK FINE. 4 hours pass o0o we get picked up. I get in the car o0o about half way back i start panicking i look around the car, my eyes start watering, i look over at shoosh and she looks at me like what u cant find it. THEN I YELL
rj3ooooony rj3ooooony lal mall abi mobily i lost it i lost it ABIIIIIIIIIIIIII
they all look at me like SHUT THE FUCK UP o0o ignore me i take shoosh's mobile o0o call my phone o0o it gives me the voice mail. I CALL 238928 more times no one ansrs :( ITS LOST ALL GONE :(. Then shoosh was like nzloony at my hair appointment o0o you can go back and ask il security heenak.
OK nzlnaha o0o rj3na. I go to the valet i ask they say yes they found it
YESSSSSSSSSSS BELLA THEY FOUND IT WOHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOO
but....., BUT AISH.
THE STUPID VALET DUDE ygool "but im sorry your phone is dead o0o y*97ak"
wtf ma Y*97K
uhhhhhhhh "where is it" i say
"at the conceirge "
OK i go to the conceirge i spend 5 min expalining to the dumb blond that i lost mobily o0o ask her if she's seen it
tgool il dumb blonde "we didnt get any cell phones here" in her squeeky unbearable voice "check the security its near banana republic you cant miss it"
I casually walk over there and im all panicked inside.
I go to the security o0o i ask them and they say its up stairs 3nd cingular
WTF my cell phone took a trip around the mall
i go to the cingular store o0o ask them they say my phone is with the manager and he just left
I ask them to call no I DEMAND they call him.
He comes
He gives me the mobile
I squeeze my eyes shut and stick out my hand
He puts 3 peices in my hand
I OPEN MY eyes o0o its in pieces my brand new cell illy maloo 1 month m3ay in pieces


THE STUPID CAR RAN OVER IT
I HATE MYSELF
I WALK TO THE CAR WITH MY HEAD DOWN
MY HEAD IS NEVER DOWN
I TRY TO FIX IT BAS THE SCREEN IS SMUSHED
I HATE MY CARELESSNESS
I CALL SHOOSH AND SHE STARTS LAUGHING
ITS NOT FUNNY
I HATE MY CARELESSNESS
I PROMISE MY ASS NEVER TO BE CARELESS
I HATE MY CARELESSNESS
AND GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?
I WALK INTO A STORE LOOK AROUND AND LEAVE MY PURSE ON THE FLOOR
TALK ABOUT VOWING NOT TO BE CARELESS ANY MORE
I NEED HELP.......